It was tough for Danial to go out with Una today. She came to fetchhim at 4pm and as soon as Danial heard her voice, he ran upstairs. I managed to bring him down by coaxing him with ice-cream bribe if he come down. So Una remain silent while Danial climb down. Once again he tried to run upstairs when he heard her but she managed to stop him before he reach the top. In the end, she had to carry him off with no socks, shoes or jacket on. It was very difficult for me to watch Danial being so terrified of leaving home away from me. It makes me feel quilty ofcourse and I wish I could just take him but I really need those time away for myself to recuperate too. I need to have time for the other 2 kids or else, they will left out in the end. Because everything that happens in the house always evolves around Danial.

War Of the Worlds by H.G. Wells

I went to watch a movie today at 2pm. War of the Worlds is a totally "another" kind of movie for me. I kind of like it but it left me exhausted as I am a sort of person that is so easily frightened by almost anything. This is a pretty violent movie in my opinion. Ofcourse reading it at the age of 15 was another matter totally for me you see. I tend to read very fast and live in the story but couldn't really live in this one before. Now seeing the movie after many years ago of reading it, it makes some sense of what I don't understand before. It was the world premiere of this movie in the Faroe Islands so my husband and the rest of the censors people were watching as well to give ratings for the faroese community. In Denmark it is rated 11 years but here, they agreed on 16 and above. Ironically, I brought Hadi Johan along but then he again, he don't qualify for any of the rating because he is still zero years of age (technically speaking that is!). He didn't enjoy the movie though. I just have to take this opportunity to watch it or else I would not have any chance at all. I thought at first that I was going to watch "Batman Begins" but turn out I was wrong. That movie will start only on 22 july on the Faroe Islands.

After that we went to have coffee at the daycare where Jana Maria goes to. It is called "Lítliskóg" meaning small forest.We were the only one there by the time we reach her class which is called "Álvalund". I have no idea what that mean. She will be going to another class in August called "Eikilund Uttara Stova". I have no idea what Eikilund mean but uttara stova means outer hall. A child from 6months to under 3 goes to "vøggustova" and 3 till5 goes to "barnagarð". When they are 6, they go to "skula stova" to prepare them before they go to school at age 7. So Jana Maria will move to "Eikilund Uttara Stova" in august because she will be 3 years old on 20th July.Anyway, we were given a file folder fill with pictures of her taken by the child carers and also drawings that she had done over the months she has spent in the class that she was in.

As for Danial, he went on a boat trip to another island with the rest of the support worker and handicapped children. I am sure he had a good time even though his support worker hadn't write anything in his daily journal. He had run into something yesterday while under her care and hit his right eye and socket into something. It was swollen and blue black when he came home but she didn't give me any details of what happened. She just said, "he crashed today" and then in a hurry, she left. I had to ring her up after 30mins to ask exactly what happened to Danial as he appeared to be slightly drowsy and withdrawn than usual. Only then I get some details. Not to my liking but then again, she is a very nice girl and has taken good care of Danial so far. We will be sad to see her leave this august to further her study. She has decided to take up occupational therapy and will be studying in Denmark. Besides, it is not easy looking after Danial, he can do anything just out of a sudden. You got to have eye on him the whole time and not even a second glance away from him.

My Calm Champion

Here's the apple of my eye! He is starting to eat now. He do not particularly like the taste of milk in his food. I can understand why. Mother's milk is always the best! He's got 2 lower front teeth when he was 6 months old. That's two months later than his older siblings. He's turning round and round like a top non-stop and he is so friendly. He says "hei" to anyone who look at him! He likes attentions and I believe he likes to perform. Wonder what he want to do when he grows up. Hadi Johan means Calm Champion and that he is. He is so wonderfully calm and such an easy baby. Even my MIL is amazed. She is 83 and she said she has never met such an easy and understanding baby in all her life before Hadi Johan. Jana Maria is so smitten with him. She's always hugging and kissing him and talking about bringing him along to wherever she go. She cannot resist the temptation to kiss him even when he's just making smacking noise with his mouth first thing in the morning. Soon she will start shopping for him too. She always buys things in two when we go shopping. One for herself and one for Danial as she put it. But soon it will be for Hadi Johan too.

Weekend

I have decided to post this picture which was taken about a month ago. The only picture I was able to capture with all my kids together. It is not easy getting Danial in any picture. Or with someone else. He don't look at all. If he does look it is usually because of something totally unrelated or just a coincidence!
It was a weird weekend in a way as I have some time to sit down in between the days. I guess that was bcoz Danial has a new pastime. He like to be near the washing machine or near the tumble dryer. As long as he get to watch machine when it is spinning or hear the tumble dryer in progress, he is happy. As soon as it stop, he come to find me and place my hand over the machine to indicate that he want it to be switch on again. I had to keep the doors to the machines locked at times bcoz I want him to have his lunch or dinner. He did not have any breakfast or lunch yesterday. He was so preoccupied with his favourite new pastime. You know what I mean by that. He's still at it while I'm typing this.

On saturday, he came home very happy at 7:30pm and directly under his duvet. He slept after 2 hours though. But he had been near the shore with a lady name Una. She is his support worker who cares for him once a month. We are applying for twice a month now. She went pony-riding with him and he simply enjoy that experience. In fact, he did not want to get off the pony. So I think he will surely enjoy his once a week horse-riding session which will begin as soon as the paper work is done from the social department. I tried calling twice today but the social councillor is still busy or away from desk or in a meeting. Well, hope things get done and everything will be allright.

Today is a beautiful day but I decide to stay indoor and do some cross-stitching. Dare not go out in the garden today bcoz the bees have appeared. I think it is dangerous to stitch outside where you are exposed to these brave bees.

Fabulous voice!

As you know, yesterday was my 5th year anniversary. We both agreed that this year since we are saving up for our trip to Denmark, we will not buy any gifts or flowers or even spend the night out. Well, my husband must have taken my word for it seriously. He didn't even buy dinner for me to cook! Anyway, I was invited by his cousin and his uncle's wife to a concert by Russ Taff and Lynda Randle. They did not know that it was our 5th year anniversary and we didn't want to remind them either. Maybe you already know who they are. I am new to them. I've heard Lynda's songs on the faroese radio station but didn't realise I was going to see her in Faroe Islands performing on stage. Her voice is powerful! I had a good time last night at the concert. My husband didn't go as he didn't get a ticket plus, he wouldn't have enjoyed it. He don't like such things.

Five years

Yes, we have been married for five years now and it still feel like we just got married yesterday. What a warm thought when one think of it. Guess we still are not sick of each other yet. Hope not. He said he'll never ever get bored with me because I am so interesting everyday.........hahaha. I find him very predictable. He find me very unpredictable except when it come to nagging. I have not decided yet if we should go out tonight. Maybe we just stay home as usual. Danial will be taken care by the umlætting family for the weekend so we get our breathing space and much needed sleep to prepare ourselves again on monday to care for Danial. How wonderful it is to be here.
I woke up feeling crappy a bit today because I forgot to arrange the mattress last night so Danial end up falling asleep on it before I have time to made it. I end up sleeping with half of my body on the floor. Had to ward off his legs from kicking Hadi Johan who insist on sleeping next to me last night. so Jana Maria was left on her own (lucky for me) in "Danial's" room. Her room is downstairs actually, next to my blind and helpless mother in law. But she still afraid to sleep on her own far away from me so this have to be for now. She like to play in her room though and very proud to invite her friends over to play with her in that room. Maybe because she has the dollhouse nicely place on a table and the riding horse and her princess chalk board with her favourite "Winnie the Pooh"'s pillows and toys all around her.

The Royals have flown home. The danish queen and her husband flew in separate planes from that of the crown prince and princess but yes they have gone from Faroe Islands I believe. With all the expensive presents that the people here have offered and some personally made for them. Everyone bearing well wishes for her marriage and her soon to be born child. What I don't understand is why? They are so so rich. Wear clothes for one day and that's the last time they'll wear it again. And they have so much money to spend on anything they want but yet they are given the most expensive thing when sometime even the person who is giving cannot afford the thing for himself??

out walking

what a nice day it was for me today. I went out walking with Hadi Johan and Jana Maria. I kept her home today so we could spend some time together. She really like to go shopping. Hadi Johan was an angel. He slept throughout our walk. He woke up for a while but since I kept on wallking, he just continue on sleeping. I went to buy diazepam and hydrocortisone cream for my son and was also given mosturising repair cream! That was weird! Apparently, someone from the doctor's office had faxed that yesterday. and today Froði called me so I ask for sleeping tablet for my son and he prescribed Diazepam. Imagine, I tried it on him tonight for the first time and he was active for 2hours before he went to sleep at 2300hrs. Anyway, back to my walk..... Jana Maria was a good company. She like to go shopping so I didn't face any problem with her. She walk into all shop that I go and enjoy looking through what is in each store. But I have a problem though. She wanted to buy some socks (for some reason, she seem to like buying socks!!) again and I said no. I bought a pink blouse for her for 25kr, and a t-shirt for Hadi Johan for 49kr. I bought a summer jacket for her trip to Denmark as she do not have any before. But as soon as I reach the pharmacy, Hadi Johan started to make noise a bit. I looked into his pram to position him and remove the thick layer of clothing, I found a pair of socks. So looks like I have to go back to town tomorrow to return it or pay for it. It cost 23.50kr.
Well, at least I have an excuse to go out shopping tomorrow. We are planning on buying a baby stroller for Hadi Johan for use in Denmark. We have 3 different types of strollers at home but it is too bulky to bring. We have no space for it as we must bring Danial's wagon so we will shop for it tomorrow again. Hopefully we find something we can afford and use and like!

Hospital

My Godson went to Denmark yesterday morning with his mom. She got a broken leg 8 weeks ago and is walking around with a removable, inflatable cast and hand crutches. They flew yesterday and this morning, the surgeon informed them that Aron(my godson's name) need to be operated on both his arms and legs. So his father, which is my brother-in-law(my BIL) will fly today after lunch to join his son. Lucky for him, he got such a young mother-in-law who can look after the rest of his children. He got 5 in all, Barbara 15, Danjal 6, Aron 4, Janita 3, Niklas 10months.
Aron was born with a congenital heart disease. I knew straightaway there were something wrong with his heart and lung circulation in the first hour of his life as I went to the labour ward on 1st december 2000 at 2am (when he was born) to congratulate my brother in law's girlfriend! So I noticed he was not pink as a newborn should be, he has this moonshaped face and the fingernail was another giveaway too. He don't have the ability to latch onto the nipple too. Anyway, I ask if any doctor or midwife has examined and listen to his heart? But I was given the answer that they were told that everything is in order and he was healthy. I went home feeling uncomfortable and dissatisfied. My husband woke me up at 4am to inform me that he must go to my BIL apartment to look after his children as my BIL and his girlfriend has to fly to Denmark immediately with Aron. Before my husband can tell me what it is, I already got the diagnosis and told him. He was shocked ofcourse. Everyone was shocked. Aron was such a sweet little boy with lots of hair and he was so sick. He was born with TGA,ASD,VSD,Coarctation of the Aorta and Pulmonary Atresia. He was baptised straightaway just in case he won't make it.
He is such a brave little boy. He went through so many operations and he is so proud of showing off his "medallion" that he got for each stay in the CTSICU. Just yesterday morning he was telling us what he is going for this time. He said, I am going to denmark to have my hand operated on and he smile! He had a stroke when he was 2 years old because of blood clot blocking his artery somewhere in his brain. His suture at the atrial valve gave way and blood clot travel to his brain and he got a stroke. So he has been through physiotherapy and occupational therapy since he was 2 until now and he still cannot walk properly so that it why they decide to perform this operation to move the nerves to another area in the affected limbs(as I was informed in faroese language, have no idea what they meant either).
So each time we got a letter from the hospital, it only state on the address as"familien Krakusteini" and we have to open the letter to find out if it was meant for my Danial or is it for Aron. You see, both our family have to go to Denmark for regular check up because of our sons.
People view this as a tragedy. Some even think it is a curse on our family to have two sick children living in the same house. The hospital staff and the social councillor also get confused when we called. Aron went to Denmark on 19th June and Danial will go to Denmark on 14th June. Both has appointment in the Rigshospital.
My son Danial do not have congenital heart disease. He was born healthy and bubbly, normal.
What happened was when he was 2y8m, he was admitted for suspected paracetamol overdose. Without waiting for the blood result(6hours later it was revealed to us that his blood result shows he has not consumed any paracetamol) to see if he had actually consumed any of it, the physician went ahead to administer IV N-acetylcysteine (known antidote for paracetamol poisoning). But their untrained nurses in their so called ICU didn't noticed the allergic reaction that he get from this infusion. They were having trouble running the drip as the pump was making troubleshooting noises. I alerted them, informed them subtly so that they don't feel offended and they weren't actually because they actually cannot identify an allergic reaction or anaphylactic shock even if it was presented to them! That's how incompetent there were! My son's life was in grave danger and they were chatting in the telemetry counter where they pass report for an hour and half. He shows all signs of hypovolumic shock, petechiæ, head swollen five times his normal, unconsciousness, unresponsive to call or physical pain, non-stop diarhoea, cold and clammy, very pale and jaundiced and yet none of them could see what was wrong. Can you imagine any mother having to go through this kind of nightmare? He ended up resuscitated and ventilated. After he was extubated the next day, he was blind, unable to sit up, talk properly or even maintain normal breathing. His brain was swollen and his respiratory centre was offwired so to speak. He stop breathing intermittently. He acquired epilepsy because of this. Don't know what else he got from this incident(He is now also mentally retarded and now they diagnosed him as having infantile autism too). And still the answer we get from the health professionals here was, "we have no idea what had happened, this is a special case, we have never seen this before so we have to just wait and see". Nothing more they could do. Until ofcourse I finally said,"look here, do something. Call anybody you know, any specialist you know and get us treated in Denmark". Then only we got some answers for our son's "sickness". There's more but I cannot express them in words or even tell all in details of what happened. I have left out lots of things in this story. It's so bad that I do not wish any child, mother or parents have to go through what I went through.It's too mind consuming for me.

The Danish Queen, The Crown Prince Frederik and Crown Princess Mary has arrived in the Faroe Islands this morning at 9am. We sat at our window and watch as their ship sail past us towards the quiet Torshavn Harbour. There's no way I am going out to greet them today! The weather is a great disappointment today. Of all the days, they chose to visit on a day like this. Raining, foggy and windy all over! Too bad for the faroese government that has spent so much of the state money to tidy up and repair damaged roads for the "kongelig familien" and it would not be notice at all.........hahaha. I know they will leave on the 23rd so just in time for my 5th year wedding anniversary. Let you gals in on a secret, I have not plan anything yet! Danial will be spending time with Una, the support worker who take Danial for weekend home visit once a month. So I am left with Hadi Johan and Jana Maria. Should be no problem to go out once I make them sleep. Everywhere we go is only about 5-10mins away from home anyway.

lack of sleep

Oh dear me. what a night it was last night. Danial went to bed at around 2235hrs and was up at 0210hrs. Weird thing was, this time he went straight to the bedroom door, screaming and very agitated about something. He asked for milk and food and car but still very angry and crying. Refuse to go to bed, he shake the child guard gate with no success. I thought he will come back to bed so I went under the duvet but then I heard a funny noise and ran out to see what it was. He was walking down the stairs in the dark. Just imagine, this boy really has strong-will. He actually climb over that fence and walk down the steps with his impaired vision and dark stairway. I had to follow him down to the kitchen and stayed there with him until it was 5:30am. In the middle of it all, I had to climb up and down the stairs to look out as Hadi Johan and Jana Maria might wake up screaming if I weren't there. True enough, at 3:20am, Jana Maria came running down the stairs and join us in the kitchen. So I made some tea and we all have early breakfast with toast! Then she went upstairs as Hadi Johan was also up. I was afraid of what those two might do together. I had to keep an eye up and down.
Right now, I am like a zombie. Cannot think straight and we will be driving to an 85 year old woman's birthday in half hour, but Danial is still sleeping now at 4:25pm.
Old people always says that when the parents have so much to do, that's when the child also has much to do as they are left to be on their own when they are quiet. How true.
Disaster struck my dollhouse and my MIL fancy living room today. Jana Maria came to me covered in acryilic pink paint from head to toe and I mean that literally. Had to throw the shirt and pants she was wearing, soak her in oil bath mixed with soapy warm water 3 times. Scrub her until she turn red all over and screaming, I don't care. The table, the chairs, the doorhandle, the door and the carpet in the living room are all stained with the culprit fingerprints and thick amount of pink pastel paint. So carpet had to be stripped when we have the time. As for my dollhouse............I have no words to describe it. What do I do with stained glass windows, mixed acrylic colour paint all over the external wall and the door and the roof.
I'll plan tomorrow on what to do or when I am a bit cool down to talk about it.
Actually, I was pretty cool about it. Didn't need to shout or scold her at all. She saw the look on my face and she know it straightaway that she should just do what I say and keep her mouth shut!

counting days

Right now, I am just counting the days to my trip to Denmark or any trip outside of the house for that matter. Time now is 2218hrs, Danial has just fallen asleep. Jana Maria was the first. She was too tired that she can't even wait for me to brush her teeth or remove her dirty clothes. She surrender at 7pm, snoring loudly and saliva drooling on her hand. Hadi Johan show resistance as usual but I always win in the end. He surrender at 8:30pm. So I now have some time to post this blog. Was watching the second last episode of "Lost" and final episode will be coming in 5mins time.
Anyway, I have booked our flight and made reservation at our choice of the holiday resort. Next is to book the rented car from Avis. We even got a new stroller frame for Danial. I like it better than the old one because it is easier to maneuvre with the wheel turning left and right as we push it. It is lighter than the old metal bars that broke last month. So we got that figured out. We do not know what to do with Hadi Johan however. We simply cannot bring his baby pram too due to the limited space. Danial's stroller take more space and we have to think of luggages too. With Hanus' old Toyota, we cannot fit all inside. The last time, I have Jana Maria in front of my big tummy, Danial alone in the back and Hanus drop the back seat to accomodate our big luggage and Danial's stroller. Now I have Hadi Johan too. That is why we cannot take his pram along. I have to use sling for him but it will be too heavy for me to carry him all the time. Not good for my back. I am still looking forward to the trip though. Nothing can hamper my holiday spirit. By the way sis, have you send anything to the address that I gave you?
I am trying to make a list of the things that I want to have fulfilled on our trip this time. Hanus think it might be our last holiday which we can afford. Lucky for us, the airtickets are paid for and the Patient hotel stay are paid for too (2nights). Otherwise, we can wave sayonara to our "holiday". It is not really a holiday actually. You see, we have to go to Denmark for Danial's follow-up with the neurologist and opthalmologist. The length of stay is still undetermine actually.
Now I got to catch up with the last episode of Lost. already miss first 5mins of it. Must get an early sleep- tomorrow must attend an 85year old virgin's birthday(my MIL's elder sister).Expecting about 100 people I think. My MIL have big family. They have 11 siblings. Between them they have about 43 children. That's only my husband's maternal side!

Well, I finally am able to post picture again thanks to photobucket.

 

my finished exterior of the dollhouse

Water Girl

You are a water girl. You are flexable and very
nice. You are quiet so people who don't know
you thnk you are weird or just mean and high
and mighty like. You aren't though. You like
to have a good time and you also just like to
relax and just enjoy the stars.

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
brought to you by

Crown Prince and Crown Princess visiting us

What do you know.....we are getting a visit from the Royal Highness Crown Prince Frederik and Crown Princess Mary of Denmark on monday 20th June til 23rd June in the Faroe Islands.
You'd be surprised at how much millions of kroner was being spent by the Faroese Government just to repair the many uncared for and badly damaged roads and streets just because the Danish Royals are coming to visit for 3 days. They would rather spend millions to make sure the country is "good enough" for the very rich Royalty rather than caring for their own people. The people lives here very contented with what they get or don't get. Damaged roads, no pedestrians pathways,etc and yet they spent most of the taxpayers money to welcome the Royals who will probably come only this once and get the most expensive presents!
That's how it is in life. If you think about it. How many times have you seen the poor or low income people getting treated like rubbish and the rich are treated to a free buffet or free goodies? They can afford and they are stingy and the less fortunate are the most generous and giving in always.
Why even my MIL(mother in law) is worried about the condition of my BIL's(brother in law) roof. It is in need of changing for many years now so it look terribly ugly and unsightly to be honest. But my MIL is more concerned about what will the Crown Princess think when she sees this. As if she would look at every roof tops in the Faroe Islands. We are not that close to the harbour anyway. Many houses have paid out of their own pocket to have their pathway to their home done. Where no road exist before, now it is a beautiful garden and fancy decorations out in the front porch.
As for me, yeah I did buy 3 plants. Planted them all in one giant ceramic flower pot that I found hidden in the attic for many years ago and fill it with some mold and put it in front of my doorsteps so my MIL would stop nagging that we are not welcoming.

I wish I can post some pictures but now my stupid hello don't work. I keep on getting stupid message like "UI not valid, try to reinstall if no other copy is running" or something like that. I have uninstalled and installed like 4 times and still it does not work. Does anyone know any other programme that I can publish my photos here with??

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wallpapering next

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I have taken this picture on the 15th june. There's not much left to do except to plan on the wallpapering next. I have to decide though on which room will be the bedrooms, kitchen, living room and toilet.

Dollhouse almost complete

I have been gluing my dollhouse today. It's almost done now. The painting was finished yesterday and early this morning so the afternoon I spent putting it together. It was abit tricky when it come to the dormer window on the roof top. I still have yet to glue and fix the front panel together and the windows. Otherwise, the house is standing on the table in my mother in law's fancy living room. Well, this is actually my house but since my mother in law's old furnitures and her "gamla dansk" stuffs and influence are all over the room, I just call it her fancy living room. You can't change anything in the house bcoz she still control what she want you see. It's like "sex in the city" Charlotte's mother in law Bunny when she was married to Trey. Something like that, in the episode where Charlotte tried to redecorate Trey's apartment but to no avail because of constant annoyance from Bunny. Anyway, back to my dollhouse again. I am going to take a picture now of what I have accomplished today and post it soon. Wait around. Did I tell you it's pink?? Yes I think I did. It's cute! Want to move in?? Get it furnish first.

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family on same day 12th june 2005
hello all, sorry for putting you through this picture all over again. You guessed it! I have no other picture at the moment, that is why! Besides, I somehow managed to play around with the balance and make what was unseen before to be seen now BUT I still cannot figure out how to cut and paste all 5 photo onto one side. Totally forgot how to do it as I vaguely remembered doing this kind of stuff back in Singapore. How on earth do I use photo editor?? Anyway, I am happy as it is. Will hurry and glue my dollhouse so that I can take a picture for you all to see how it is progressing on. Now that the exterior paint is finished. I am so excited. It's pink!!! purple curtains, pink carpet, red roofing...hahaha. Trust me, I am not nuts!

me 

Zia 

Hanus
Here he is. Do you know how difficult it is for me to snap a photo of him? He's always saying " no I must shave first!","I don't look good for a picture at this moment!","I need a shower first!". A shower for a photoshot? That the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard! I did sort of get that one before this shot actually. "No I stink!", was what he claimed before I get into my long tirade of how anybody can actually pick any smell from a picture. I even get him to smile. Aren't I good?

Danial 

Jana Maria
She woke up about 15mins before this picture was taken. So she's a bit cranky actually when I ask her to stand up for a picture. Usually, she loves camera session. I figured that I am going to take everyone's picture today and have it post on monday for you. I did snap one of Hadi Johan but it was so black that I drop it at the last minute so next time, he'll appear here too.

Birthdays that I know.

I know that three people have their birthdays today(10th June). First person is my nephew that is living in Singapore. His name is Hakim. He is my older sister's first son. I was taking care of him a lot during his first two years of life that when he was sick and we brought him to the doctor. The doctor always mistaken me for his mom instead of my sister. The last time I see him was a few months after his 4th birthday. that was because I left Singapore to live in the Faroe Islands. I wish I can see him again and the rest of my niece and nephews too. He use to sleep on my chest or on my back when I was doing my nursing project on my laptop. Now he's not the only nephew I got. There are other three which are Fatah, Hilmi and Adam. I also have one niece called Shahira. Anyway, back to the birthday subjects. Another person that I know who have a birthday today is my good friend Martin. He turn 27 today. He is also another foreigner like me living in the Faroe Islands. He came from Slovakia and married a faroese girl a month after my wedding. Now they are expecting their second child (EDD 25th June). The third person that I know who celebrate her birthday today is my husband's cousin's daughter. Her name is Bára. Her mom Lena(my husband's cousin) has two other daughters who will turn two on 3rd October. They are fraternal twins. I sort of became friends with her and her sisters as we are around the same age plus, they were being nice to me. What with me being alone and all with no mom or sisters here and no relatives here. Anyway, I managed to attend Bára's %th year birthday party today. Jana Maria came along with me and I am glad to see that she had a good time there today. I planned to bring Hadi Johan along as his Godparents (Lena's youngest sister and her hubby Dan) have return from their honeymoon trip in Las Vegas. Unfortunately, Hadi Johan was so tired that he fell fast asleep so I had to leave him behind with Danial and Hanus. I knew I could not bring Danial because of the level of interruption at a kid's birthday party will agitate him. He does not like too many people and looud noises around him. It upset him and tendsto make his violent outburst more. I am thankful that now Danial can see again. Who knows, one day, he can even see which one is me or Hanus. We finally were able to bring him to get his spectacles done. It cost slightly less than we expected so that was nice

in progress
This is the cross-stitch that I am working on right now sis. Then I'll think of a border around it. Was thinking of the like winding vines or something simple but along that line, not elaborate as the wording that I make is also simple backstitch. I am also thinking of putting two small doves with a heart in between them. Have to design it first or find somewhere on the net though. I found one the other day but it is a bit too big for my project. On this project is a marriage advice written by Jane Wells in the 19th century. Still a lot to stitch, I am not even halfway there yet. Anyway, I must make sure it is done and finish framing by 27th July. As for now I am going to sleep. Maybe I can fall asleep tonight.

So, what do you see when you look at this attachment?

• If you see it as spinning fast, then you are very stress. some people even say that you may be a psychopath. I don't know how true that is.
• I see it as spinning slowly. It was turning frantically earlier tonight though when Danial was in a bad mood, agitated and kicking me. I had to have a good cry and then decide that it is better that I served him Melatonin to aid in calming him down and assist his sleeping process. It work after 5mins.
• A child is supposed to see it just as it is. No movement whatsoever. I showed Jana Maria last week and she said it is beautiful. Wonder if it is turning rapidly because she was laughing as if very fascinated by it.

Heaven's Special Child

I copied this from Daily Doses site so that others may also read this very nice poem.

Heaven's Special Child

Author presently unknown

A meeting was held quite far from earth, It’s time again for another birth.

Said the angels to the Lord above; This special child will need much love

His progress may be very slow, Accomplishments he may not show.

And he’ll require extra care, From the folks he meets down there,

He may not run or laugh or play, His thoughts may seem quite far
away.

In many ways he won’t adapt, and he’ll Be known as handicapped.

So let’s be careful where he is sent, we want His life to be content.

Please, Lord, find the good friends who, will Do a special job for
you.

They will not realize it right away, the leading Role they’re asked to
play.

But with this child sent from above, comes Stronger faith and richer
love.

And soon they will know the privileges given, In caring for their gift from
Heaven.

Their precious charge, so meek and mild, in Heaven’s very special child.

doll house topic again

I tried to take some pictures yesterday of Danial and Hadi johan separately ofcourse but turn out it was as black as midnight when I tried to upload on the computer. Must change the settings on my digital camera somehow. I am not very smart when it come to machinery no matter what size they are! Lucky for you guys I know how to handle this computer or else there'll be nothing for you to read from my daily "blah blah ing itis"!
I was so excited yesterday when I finally received my sales order from the Dollshouse Emporium. I must say I am very happy with their service! They packed it in properly to ensure no damage to the item no matter what they are. They give very prompt and good service online and good, friendly and courteous service on the phone too! No wonder they are an established business over the years who knows how to treat their customers well. So now I got my stuff and all I need is time. I must have time to paint the exterior, fix the windows and drill some holes for lamps and then I can go on with my wall papering stuffs that I bought from them now.

How do one celebrate a wedding anniversary?

I thought I had it all figured out. 24th June is our 5thyear wedding anniversary! Arranged for the "stuðul" to have Danial for the weekend and Hanus to take a night off. From here, I am stuck. What do I plan for the evening? A six month old baby who is still nursing and an almost three year old girl (not forgetting an 83 year old blind and helpless mother-in law too)...........hmm, what do you do when you are planning on saving money for a family trip overseas in two weeks time? This is way too "chim" for me to think. Maybe I should just drop it. I told my husband that we could also just buy the fireworks, fire 5 times into the sky and the kiss and say "poof" (our goodbyes to each other over the years has remain the same) and off he go to work. He laughed at this idea saying that so next year we will have to burn 6 then.

attention Begum!

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gambar ni pun sama kalau boleh tapi jangan buat besar snagat and not too many count okay? terima kasih kalau boleh, kalau tak boleh pun terima kasih. Adik sekarang macam mana, rindu kakak pada dia. Dah lama tak dengar khabar dia, kalau hang jumpa dia atau berbual dgn dia, tolonglah beri salam kakak pada dia.

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hi begum, boleh tolong convert gambar ni tu cross-stitch tak? Kakak nak guna border dia lah untuk kakak punya cross-stitch project.

My Expression numbers?

Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance.You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need.You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others. You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others.You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity.Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships. Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself.At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others.At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's" Your Expression Number?

(I like reading this, would like to think I am this coz it describe me)

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Gluttony: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

How Sinful Are You?

(hehehe...this is really funny for me.........hehehehe)

too happy

Well, Danial must have woken up from the wrong side of the mattress (we don't have any bed left you see.......he broke 2 of our beds already and we are not getting any until he learn to stop bed hopping).Danial has been laughing non-stop from this morning till 2215hrs tonight,(that's when he finally surrender to sleep you see). Whether you scold him or talk to him or ignore him, nothing can damper his happy mood today. He was just in his heaven. I must admit, it was driving me nuts. I know he can stay up for as long as 1am but I must have done something good so that's why he end up sleeping at 2215hrs on his own. Ofcourse, it was after he stripped the bedsheets, toppled the big armchair upside down, tore paper boxes to tiny pieces all over the room and waking Jana Maria up! He keep on jumping on her until she cannot just ignore him anymore. So now she is sleeping in his room.
At one point I laughed at him bcoz he jumped up suddenly when he hear my voice and run to hide under the duvet laughing by himself. It was as if he knew he has done something which would not make me happy. That little happy monkey!

Now on another matter completely different altogether. I still have not any time to touch my cross-stitch at all today. I feel guilty but hope I can pick up pace soon. I really need to have it finished before 27th july. I just pick up the earlier cross-stitch that I did for my youngest son from the local framing shop. I wasn't too happy with his craftmanship but hey, what can I do........I wasn't too careful with my craftmanship either. I just learn from my sister now how to do the loop method and not to tie knots and also just read now about how I am not supposed to thread dark yarn under light yarn or it will show. And it did show...
Like they say "you learn from your mistakes" and that's what I did. Actually, I always did learn from my mistakes in almost everything. So I say.mistakes are good things. It teaches you. But it is only good to make mistakes if you learn from it, not when you just do it on purpose and don't give two hoots about it.

Today, we got the visit from the "sosiala raðgeva" (we've been waiting for her to call us for ages). Finally we got something off our chest but there are still more to be discussed and most of the things which we discussed aboput will take time to plan. Maybe over 3 months at least now that it's summer holiday time. Everyone's going on a holiday so things will be on hold for a while. I will not put my son in an instituition and I will not turn my home into an instituition for him. So we are figuring out something else. More on this topic tomorrow perhaps. I must have my much needed beauty sleep or rather.....health sleep. I am not feeling well this couple of days. When your body is deprived of rest and sleep, you succumbed easily to sickness and that's what happen to me. It takes time to heal the simplest of all sickness when you cannot get enough rest. Funny, I may not be working outside but I am still busy at home. Lucky for me, I have a very positive outlook in life now that it make me a strong person. I am stronger as a person now than I was before everything. I believe in praying and my prayers have always been answered.

By the way, I hate this but I make this appointment myself so I must stick to it.


And tomorrow, I am going to bring Danial to make spectacles for him. I have to make one for him now no matter what.


What do you do when you really want to sleep but just cannot fall asleep? I am in this kind of trouble now. I have been trying to get some sleep whenever I can but still not possible. At night, I must stay awake when the clock turn to 0130hrs because that is when danial will get up and start dancing/stamping the floor in the loft where our bedroom is. He will stay awake until around 0430hrs to 0600hrs depending on his will. Nothing one can say that help him rest. I tried pinning him down with my own bodyweight, with the baby straps and duvet around him. Nothing works. Right now I am just too tired and sleepy to fall asleep. I hope I'll fall asleep somehow and won't wake up until at least 24hours has passed! Can I?? Don't think so. Hadi Johan has a very piercing scream when he want his feed or diapers change or attention so my 24hours plan won't work.

Tagging I found on someone's blog site

Bold the books on this list that you have read, then add 3 more books on the end that you have read that are not already on the list.

1.The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling
6. To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. 1984, George Orwell
9. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott
19. Captain Corellis Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
22. Harry Potter And The Sorcerers Stone, JK Rowling
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien

In my case I just highlights the books I've read in red.

The Eight by Katherine Neville is my most favourite read of all. I've read it like maybe 50 times but has not done so for the last 6 years. Can't find it here. If I get that book as a present, it will be my dream come true.
This Rough Magic by Mary Stewart. Mary Stewart is one of my favourite author. I read almost everyone of her books.
Monsignor Quixote by Graham Greene is another book by Graham Greene that I read just before I left Singapore. Found it accidentally as I was looking for his earlier book which I love so much but couldn't remember the title.

Another day

Well, I just came back from shopping this morning with 2 pairs of shoes. I bought them alike for Danial and Jana Maria. It's a cute one bcoz it light up when they walk. I am sure Jana Maria would like it so I buy the same for her even though it is more for a boy actually. She likes cars too. They can both use it when we go to Denmark for a family holiday in July. We plan to go to Lalandia again this year as the place is wonderful for children. Jana Maria still talk non-stop about this place even though it has been a year since we last been there. Beside she didn't even talk then. Ofcourse now she could talk and switch languages with no difficulty. She remembers when I bring her down the 62m water slide while I was pregnant with Hadi Johan. She even remember the Monky Tonky land and the songs! My hubby is looking forward to it bcoz he get to drive a fancy rented car with GPS! I want to just go to Denmark bcoz I love shopping! So we each have a reason to go to Denmark. Danial loves the big park where he is free to roam and feel the grass beneath his feet.

Bindiklub in Jinx

My MIL sisters are in my house now. They came yesterday to surprise their sister(my MIL) at 6.30pm without any notice. I wasn't ready. Caught us all by surprised. They are 78 and 85 years old virgin who live by themselves. I was so busy today that I have no time to call the doctor's office to order Danial's anti-epileptic medicine. I manage somehow to arrange an appointment with our social councillor for a home visit this friday. We have been waiting to hear her voice or her call since March!

Anyway, Rannvá and me decide then that we need to have our knitting club again as it has been a long time since we last meet each other. So we gather the girls (her maternal cousin and paternal cousin and a distant cousin of our husband's family who also happen to be very good friend with Rannvá) for a night out. We decide to go out to Jinx Cafe. But we all agree that we should meet up downstairs. My BIL(brother-inlaw) lives in the basement downstairs with Rannvá and his 5 kids. So I hurry up and put all my kids to sleep and meet them at 8.30pm but my BIL still has not come home. He went to feed the horse. We end up waiting till 10pm before we leave the house. So when we get to the cafe, the kitchen is closed, you can only order peanuts and nachos and drinks, that is all they serve but it was still fun for me though. Been a long time since I get to go out and enjoy myself really. My favourite is always ice cream chocolate drink....yummy!

By the way Elaine, Big Brother is the reality TV show which shows 13 contestant in a house with hundreds of cameras both hidden and visible and mirrored wall. And we watch their action live round the clock. There are many more to explain but I am tired now. you can go to the official website to check it out. Hope you'll understand then.

Denmark

I got a letter today. We'll be going to Denmark for Danial's treatment on the 15th july so that means we'll fly on the 14th july. I am so looking forward to it. I will keep on praying that we'll hear something positive about his neurological examination. I am not sure what they meant by that but that is all that is stated in the letter so it will have to do for now. He has two appointments. Neurology and opthalmology. It is going to be tough going to Denmark all of us altogether but there is no one who can look after Jana Maria for us. I am still breasfeeding Hadi Johan so he has to come. Even if he don't, there's nobody who can care for him either. So we have to go as a family in the end. I really don't mind that anyway bcoz we are stronger as a family then separated.