stand by

my third night shift....I managed to get a stand-by duty. so glad as I think I am getting pretty old now...hehehe.
All the kids are at home since it is the Easter's holiday. That means no peace so there is no way I am getting any rest or sleep after I come back from work or before I go to work. In fact, I have got only 3hrs sleep today... from 9am to 12noon after a very busy night shift. Ofcourse by the time morning shift came, all they saw was we sitting down waiting for them to take over report. They didn't even know the patients that came in and out as we had wash away all traces of it.
Lets hope there will be some peace tonight for my colleague who had to be at work and not on stand-by like me.

waiting

yes. waiting is always tiresome. right now I am waiting. got to wait for an answer. I am planning to visit my family whom I have never been able to visit for the past 10 years. but my problem now is waiting. waiting for an answer. will I get the nationality? will I then get a pass? I just want to be normal like everyone else. a sense of belonging. a sense of security. and freedom. I know I am afraid if I return home to Singapore because of dot dot dot reason. what if I don't get home (faroe islands is my home now) again? what if they send me to malaysia? one too many whatS and ifS.
I need a safe pass home again.